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"What we have here is a dreamer. Someone completely out of touch with reality." -The Virgin Suicides

"I make the most of all that comes, and the least of all that goes." -Sara Teasdale

"The best way out of difficulty is through it." -Robert Frost

"The darkest hour has only sixty minutes." -Morris Mandel

"A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words."

"The scariest thing about memories is thinking you're going to forget them."

"We should get jerseys, 'cause we make a good team. But yours would look better than mine, 'cause you're outta my league. And I know that it's so cliche to tell you that everyday I spend with you is the new best day of my life." -Relient K

"The way you look, the way you laugh, the way you love with all you have. There ain't nothing 'bout you, that don't do something for me. The way you kiss, the way you cry, the way you move when you walk by. There ain't nothing 'bout you, that don't do something for me." -Brooks & Dunn

"The beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair." -Relient K

"She's so pretty but she doesn't always act that way. Her mood's out swinging on the swingset almost every day. She said to me that she's so happy it's depressing, and all I said was 'Someone get that girl a mood ring.'" -Relient K

"I'll watch the night turn light blue, but it's not the same without you, because it takes two to whisper quietly. The silence isn't so bad 'til I look at my hands and feel sad, 'cause the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly." -Adam Young (Owl City)

"William Miller: 'So Russell... what do you love about music?'
Russell Hammond: 'To begin with, everything.'" -Almost Famous

"Never apologize for showing feeling. When you do so, you apologize for truth." -Benjamin Disraeli

"And what it all comes down to is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet, 'cause I've got one hand in my pocket, and the other one is giving the peace sign." -Alanis Morissette

"Of those who say nothing, few are silent." -Thomas Neill

"All truths are easy to understand once they are discovered; the point is to discover them." -Galileo

"What is essential is invisible to the eye." -The Little Prince

"The unreal is more powerful than the real, because nothing is as perfect as you can imagine it. Because it's only intangible ideas, concepts, beliefs, fantasies that last. Stone crumbles. Wood rots. People, well, they die. But things as fragile as a thought, a dream, a legend, they can go on and on." -Chuck Palahniuk

"Love is not blind - it sees more and not less, but because it sees more it is willing to see less." -Will Moss

"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place."

"Old black water, keep on rollin', Mississippi moon, won't you keep on shinin' on me... Gonna make everything all right. And I ain't got no worries, 'cause I ain't in no hurry at all." -Doobie Brothers

"This is not - this is not your heart. Don't take this lightly. It beats softly but lonely." -A Rotterdam November

"Raindrops keep fallin' on my head, but that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turnin' red. Cryin's not for me, 'cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complainin'. Because I'm free, nothin's worryin' me." -B.J. Thomas

"A single drop on my finger and the world took on a fairytale quality." -Albert Hofmann

"None are more hopelessly enslaved than those that falsely believe they are free." -Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

"Do you remember when we were just kids, and cardboard boxes took us miles from what we would miss? Schoolyard conversations taken to heart, and laughter took the place of everything we knew we were not." -Anberlin

"I guess when it comes down to it, being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up. These are the best days of our lives. The only thing that matters is just following your heart, and eventually you'll finally get it right." -The Ataris

"To laugh often and much; to appreciate beauty; to find the best in others; to know that even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded." -Ralph Waldo Emerson

"When it is dark enough, you can see the stars." -Ralph Waldo Emerson
"The earth laughs in flowers." -Ralph Waldo Emerson
"Live in the sunshine. Swim the sea. Drink the wild air." -Ralph Waldo Emerson

"Here comes the sun, here comes the sun, and I say it's all right." -The Beatles

"We can't solve problems by using the same kind of thinking we used when we created them." -Albert Einstein

"My world's on fire, how about yours? That's the way I like it and I'll never get bored." -Smash Mouth

"You are an expert at sorry and keeping lines blurry. Never impressed by me acing your tests. All the girls that you've run dry have tired, lifeless eyes 'cause you burned them out. But I took your matches before fire could catch me, so don't look now. I'm shining like fireworks over your sad, empty town." -Taylor Swift

"If you and I are a story that never gets told, if what you are is a daydream I'll never get to hold, at least you'll know, you're beautiful, every little piece love, and don't you know, you're really gonna be someone, ask anyone." -Taylor Swift

"So many things that I wish you knew, so many walls up I can't break through. Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room, and we're not speaking. And I'm dying to know, is it killing you like it's killing me? I don't know what to say since a twist of fate when it all broke down. And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now... Next chapter." -Taylor Swift

"Let it slide. Let your troubles fall behind you. Let it shine until you feel it all around you. And I don't mind if it's me you need to turn to. We'll get by, it's the heart that really matters in the end. Our lives are made in these small hours, these little wonders, these twists and turns of fate. Time falls away, but these small hours, these small hours still remain." -Rob Thomas

"When children have to play inside so they don't disappear, while private eyes solve marriage lies cause we don't talk for years. And football teams are kissing queens and losing sight of having dreams, in a world that what we want is only what we want until it's ours." -Train

"Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken. Your best friend always sticking up for you, even when I know you're wrong. Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance, five hour phone conversation. The best soy latte that you ever had, and me?" -Train

"She only drinks coffee at midnight, when the moment is not right. Her timing is quite unusual. You see her confidence is tragic, but her intuition magic." -Train

"You called me strong, you called me weak, but still your secrets I will keep. You took for granted all the times I never let you down." -3 Doors Down

"I'm over this, I'm tired of living in the dark. Can anyone see me down here? The feeling's gone, there's nothing left to lift me up, back into the world I know. And now again I've found myself so far down, away from the sun that shines into the darkest place... I'm so far down, away from the sun again... It's down to this, I've got to make this life make sense, and now I can't tell what I've done." -3 Doors Down

"There's another world inside of me that you may never see. There's secrets in this life that I can't hide. Somewhere in this darkness there's a light that I can't find. Maybe it's too far away, or maybe I'm just blind... Roaming through this darkness, I'm alive but I'm alone. Part of me is fighting this, but part of me is gone. So hold me when I'm here, right me when I'm wrong. Hold me when I'm scared, and love me when I'm gone. Everything I am, and everything in me, wants to be the one you wanted me to be. I'll never let you down, even if I could. I'd give up everything, if only for your good." -3 Doors Down

"I dream ahead to what I hope for, and I turn my back on loving you. How can this love be a good thing when I know what I'm going through? In my head there's only you now, this world falls on me. In this world there's real and make believe, and this seems real to me... You love me but you don't know who I am. I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand. You love me but you don't know who I am, so let me go. Just let me go." -3 Doors Down

So many quotes that I wanted to share, I had to lump a lot of them together haha :) Hope you enjoy.

Time to Get Personal...

Ok, I feel like getting a little personal. You should probably just stop reading now.

Sometimes I feel like I've had a tough life, and sometimes I feel like I've had a fulfilling one. I'm not depressed, but if I were, I think it would be with good reason. Everyone has their struggles, and everyone has a different way of dealing with them I guess. I'm not really sure how I should feel... but I generally feel like I'm happy. But sometimes it's hard for me to help others with their problems because their problems seem so miniscule to me. I don't get it at all.

Basically, I had a normal childhood. I lived in the suburbs and I was an only child and both of my parents worked and blah blah blah. I was spoiled, to be honest. I dealt with some abuse, but I'm not sure how bad it is compared to other people. I mean, yes, most kids get the occasional spankings or whatever. I definitely got my share of those. I was a devious kid. There were only a few times throughout my life when I would consider the abuse really terrible. I remember all of them vividly... the earliest I remember is first grade and the most recent is sixth grade. I was probably five or six the first time it got really bad. I missed the bus one morning for whatever reason... and my dad got off work early and had to take me to school. He was furious... he wanted to relax and enjoy the rest of his day off. And he warned me not to miss the bus. So... he couldn't control his temper. He started whipping me or whatever... and then he threw the kitchen chairs and barstools at me. I was bruised everywhere, the bruises didn't go away for like a month. I was cowering in the corner crying, but my mom couldn't do anything. I was glad she didn't step in or else he would've done something to her, too. And I hated when I had to see that. Anyway, I had to go to school after that, and I walked in crying but my dad said I couldn't tell anyone or I would get taken away. The greeter asked me if I was okay, and I said yeah. I don't think anyone else noticed. After that I tried to stay out of trouble, but if I did something wrong, I knew what was coming. Once I got caught eating before dinner... that was one of the worst ones.

Worse than dealing with the beatings was watching my mom go through it. I couldn't watch. Once it was my fault. Some money I had saved in a piggy bank was missing, so I told my parents. My dad dragged my mom into their room by her ear and locked the door. I was pounding on the door and begging him not to hurt her. They came out an hour later and I was still crying. And my dad was still dragging my mom by her ear... and he pointed at me and told my mom, "Do you see what you're doing? You're tearing the family apart!" If I hadn't said anything about the money it would have never happened. I would try and stop him... but I couldn't. My mom just didn't fight back... she just dealt with it. She didn't even cry. How can you do that to someone who just doesn't even try to defend herself? I can only imagine how much abuse she suffered through as long as she was with my dad.

But how can I blame my dad? I mean, as terrible as this all sounds, it's really not his fault. He was abused as a kid, and SO much worse. He would get tied to a tree upside down by one leg after being beaten senseless. Aggression is all he knew.

If I have kids, what if I do the same to them? I can't take that risk. I know I'm always preaching nonviolence... but how can I say for sure that I won't do the same to my kids? I can't, no matter what I think. There's so much more to tell, but I don't feel like putting on more of a pity party than I already have. I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me. I've been dealt this hand in life for a reason, and I'm going to use this emotional strength to my advantage. I just don't know how to get others to realize that it could be so much worse...

One of Those Days...

It's going to be one of those days. I really want to take a spontaneous trip to Las Vegas or New York... just to avoid the stress. Tests suck. Tomorrow - going to see Mike Posner live!! It'll be a great way to spend 4/20 :) haha. And friday going to see Seether, the Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, and My Darkest Days! I think I'm in loovveee! :) This weekend should be okay. Let's start living.


Anyway, Love and Other Drugs was an awesome movie :) I love Anne Hathaway and Jake Gylenhaal (or however you spell it). I hate the last few weeks of school. I just want to go home! How am I supposed to concentrate on school?! Ughhh. Someone entertain me please. Must avoid studying...

I bought a vaporizer :) Yay! It was a cheap one, but oh well. It's mostly for my mom... her lungs will appreciate it! I so want college to be over... I'm ready to buy my own house! I want a nice small house with a finished basement and a nice backyard! A pool would be nice too but a lot of work. Gahh... my stomach hurts. Who wants to move in with me?! haha. I would love some McDonald's breakfast right about now... two more hours until they open! Twitter is entertaining. I really hope no one wastes their time reading this post. I just needed to ramble. haha.

That moment when your friends spot your crush...

And they look back at you like...




And then you're like...




Haha :)

Alexz Johnson!!

Alexz Johnson's Voodoo was great, but Voodoo Reloaded is even better! The first two singles have been awesome remixes! Her voice is amazing! Can't wait for the album to come out on April 26th!! :)

Here are the lyrics:

Oh my look at those eyes
Look at the trouble that they hide inside
I see the flicker of the pain on the rise
Oh my look at those eyes

Maybe they're like mine
Things I wish I did not see
I push away all the dirt and debris
But what'll be left of me

No tell me it's not so
That people will come and they'll go
We push away all the love that we know
No tell me it's not so

Like in the eye of a storm
You're changing form
You feel the pull of the time ticking by
Oh my look at these times

But look at who's right beside you
When you're alone barely holding on
You leave your worries behind you
You're not alone in the dark
But look at who's right beside you
You're looking back thinking oh my god
That somebody's never left you
You're not alone in the dark

Oh my look at these skies
Look at the trouble that they hide inside
I see the flicker of the pain on the rise
Oh my look at these skies

Soothing like a lullaby
I don't wanna fight this fight
You feel the weight of the world on your mind
We leave it all behind

But look at who's right beside you
When you're alone barely holding on
You leave your worries behind you
You're not alone in the dark
But look at who's right beside you
You're looking back thinking oh my god
That somebody's never left you
You're not alone in the dark
You're not alone in the dark

You're not
You're not
You're not
You're not
You're not
You're not
You're not
You're not alone
You're not alone

It's been a long way long way long way home
It's been a lonely lonely lonely road
It's been a long time I can't find
So long I'm gonna lose my mind
It's been a long way long way long way home

But look at who's right beside you
When you're alone barely holding on
You leave your worries behind you
You're not alone in the dark
But look at who's right beside you
You're looking back thinking oh my god
That somebody's never left you
You're not alone in the dark

It's been a long
It's been a long way home
It's been a long way home
You're not alone in the dark

Oh my look at those eyes
Look at the trouble that they hide inside
I see the flicker of the pain on the rise
Oh my look at those eyes

Maybe they're like mine
Things I wish I did not see
I push away all the dirt and debris
But what'll be left of me.

It's Been Awhile...

"The warmth of your love's like the warmth of the sun, and this will be our year, took a long time to come." -OK Go




"Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumblebee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential, and fight for your dreams." -Ashley Smith





"I woke last night to the sound of thunder. 'How far off,' I sat and wondered. Started hummin' a song from 1962. Ain't it funny how the night moves, when you just don't seem to have as much to lose. Strange how the night moves, with autumn closin' in." -Bob Seger







"Now everybody's got advice they just keep on givin', doesn't mean too much to me. Lots of people out to make-believe they're livin', can't decide who they should be. I understand about indecision, but I don't care if I get behind. People livin' in competition; all I want is to have my peace of mind." -Boston






"But listen carefully to the sound of your loneliness. Like a heartbeat, drives you mad. In the stillness of remembering what you had, and what you lost." -Fleetwood Mac






"I looked out this morning and the sun was gone, turned on some music to start my day. I lost myself in a familiar song; I closed my eyes and I slipped away... So many people have come and gone. Their faces fade as the years go by. Yet I still recall as I wander on, as clear as the sun in the summer sky." -Boston







"Well then suddenly, there was no one left standing in the hall... In a flood of tears that no one really ever heard fall at all. Oh, I went searchin' for an answer up the stairs, and down the hall. Not to find an answer, just to hear the call of a nightbird singing, 'Come away, come away...'" -Stevie Nicks





"Hold on, baby you're losing it. The water's high, you're jumping into it and letting go, and no one knows, that you cry but you don't tell anyone that you might not be the golden one, and you're tied together with a smile but you're coming undone." -Taylor Swift





"Don't waste your time on me, you're already the voice inside my head... I miss you." -Blink 182








"The 3 C's of life: choices, chances, and changes. You must make a choice to take a chance or your life will never change."






"I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately. I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life... to put to rout all that was not life... and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived." -Henry David Thoreau







"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined." -Henry David Thoreau




"I'm captivated by you, baby, like a fireworks show. Drop everything now, meet me in the pouring rain. Kiss me on the sidewalk, take away the pain. 'Cause I see sparks fly whenever you smile." -Taylor Swift







"I'm here without you, baby, but you're still on my lonely mind. I think about you, baby, and I dream about you all the time. I'm here without you, baby, but you're still with me in my dreams. And tonight, it's only you and me." -3 Doors Down






"All that I'm after is a life full of laughter, as long as I'm laughing with you." -Daughtry






"Life is funny, life's a mess. Sometimes a curse, sometimes a blessing. Don't worry 'bout a thing, don't worry 'bout it. Life gets sticky, life can bruise. Sometimes you win, sometimes you're losing. No matter what it brings, don't worry 'bout a thing." -SheDaisy





"I ran out cryin' and you followed me out into the street. Braced myself for the goodbye, 'cause that's all I've ever known. Then you took me by surprise. You said, 'I'll never leave you alone.'" -Taylor Swift